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hi, everybody. this is stefan molyneux fromfreedomain radio. we're going to spend a little bit of time delving into a very dark cornerof the human condition trying to unravel the tangled and twisted mind of elliot rodger,the recent mass murderer in santa barbara. a lot of people tragically attempt to climbover the bodies of the victims of these kinds of shooters and unfurl whatever particularpolitical or socioeconomic flag they wish to unfurl which i consider highly disrespectfulto the victims. they're not tools to be used in the political agenda whether it's feminism,anti-misogyny, or gun rights or you name it. these victims deserve as much understandingand analysis, rational analysis that they can bring to the problem in the hopes of preventingrecurrence. so i will certainly avoid doing

that. let's look at the crime itself. friday, may23rd 2014, elliot rodger, the son of filmmaker peter rodger who was an assistant directoron one of the hunger games films, carried out a mass murder plot which he had plannedfor over a year. initially, he was going to do it last year but a bullying incident lefthim with a broken leg then he was sick and then he finally enacted it to tragic effecton friday. 9:27 p.m. two victims are reported shot andkilled outside in isla vista area sorority house. additional sources report shots firedin several areas of isla vista and a description of rodger's car is broadcast to police. thethird victim, christopher michael-martinez,

is shot and killed inside a deli where rodgerhas fired several rounds after getting out of his car. rodger is approached by policeand exchanges gunfire with them before fleeing the scene and crashing into several bicyclists.at 9:37 p.m. rodger crashes his bmw and is found dead from an apparent gunshot woundwhich apparently also was self-inflicted when officers approached his car. it is later reported that three additionalmen were found dead in rodger's apartment when police searched the property. they werestabbed repeatedly with a sharp object in what was described as a horrific crime scene. is this out of nowhere? well, tragically,no. in the weeks before the shootings, rodger

released a series of youtube videos includingtitles such as "why do girls hate me so much?" and "life is so unfair because girls don'twant me." family members called authorities after beingalarmed by the videos which contained references to suicide and killing people on april the30th 2014. police interviewed elliot rodger at his home and found him to be "a perfectlypolite, kind and wonderful human." so good job with that. rodger had three legally purchased guns andmore than 400 rounds of ammunition in his home at the time of the police interview andalso he had written down plans for his murderous rampage.

another video entitled "elliot rodger's retribution"which detailed the planned murders was published hours before the shootings. just before wego on, i really want to point something out here. so seven cops show up. they're not trainedto assess mental health. they're cops and they find him to be "just fine," a littlesocially awkward, kind of shy, but just fine. well, if somebody has published youtube videoscalling for a suicide and murder, maybe it might be helpful for the cops to subscribeto his youtube channel and be notified when he posts a new video. maybe it might alsobe helpful for his parents and grandparents and stepmother and mother to also subscribeto his youtube channel to find out when he publishes another video and what it mightcontain.

it does not seem that that happened becausethe authorities and his parents had hours after his video was published to prevent himfrom doing whatever he was going to do, what he said he was going to do in the video. thislack of involvement is shocking and appalling. i view his video as a last cry for help forattention to stop him from enacting his plans. not exactly a cry for help but definitelya cry for intervention. this could all have been prevented if the authorities or his parentsor someone who knew him had subscribed to his youtube channel, had seen his video andhad alerted the authorities. this could all have been stopped. this tragically was a continuationof being ignored his whole life. "tomorrow is the day of retribution," rodgersaid in a 7-minute video, "the day in which

i will have my revenge against humanity, againstall of you." the former secretary of homeland securityand current university of california president, janet napolitano, said that the mass shootingin the community around uc santa barbara is "almost the kind of event that's impossibleto prevent and impossible to predict." well, i think i would take some issue with that. following the shooting, sheriff bill browncalled rodger mentally disturbed and said it was very apparent of the severe extentof how disturbed mr. rodger was. yes! when there are bodies piling on the sidewalk youmay be well informed to say that a disturbed person did it, but when seven cops show upat his house shortly before this and call

him, according to the lawyer, "perfectly polite,kind and wonderful," well, i think that may be a little bit of 20/20 hindsight. it's alittle bit more useful if you figure that stuff out before the bodies pile up. following the tragedy, some media outletsreported that elliot rodger was a men's rights activist and blaming the attack on the men'sright movement and rampant cultural misogyny. this is wrong on just about every level. hehad no involvement but the men's rights community that i've read after a significant amountof research into the matter, he did subscribe to a few youtube channels saying, "here'show to pick up women," but he was also a member of the website called puahate which is hatefor pick-up artists. and the only news channel

that he was subscribed to on youtube was theyoung turks and nobody of course have said that it's the liberal influence of the youngturks that has caused this which of course it's not. men who want to sleep with women don't haveanything to do with the men's right community. otherwise, just about every man would be partof the men's rights community. so this is all nonsense then. it's part of people pushingtheir agenda over to bodies which i think is incredibly horrendous. he was an aspiring pick-up artist. he subscribedto some of these youtube channels but as mentioned he was also an active member of puahate. afamily attorney announced that rodger has

been previously diagnosed as a highly functionalasperger's syndrome child and was being treated by multiple professionals. we don't know whenhe was being treated or whether he was under care of a psychiatrist or psychologist ortherapist during the time of the shooting. we also don't know whether he was being prescribedany ssris which are known to cause murderous impulses and have been implicated in a widevariety of school shootings. a father whose son was among the six deadin the shooting in california has blamed politicians in the gun lobby asking in an angry speech"when will this insanity stop? why did my son die? my son died because of craven irresponsiblepoliticians and the nra. they talk about gun rights. what about my son's right to live?when will this insanity stop? when will enough

people say, 'stop this madness.'?" well, his first victims, the three peoplein his apartment were killed with a knife and there are some reports, it's hard to confirm,certainly there's a law in california that says you cannot carry guns on a universitycampus or a school. this was the perimeter of the school. it's hard to know exactly where,i mean whether it was part of the gun-free zone or not but like many people who go toshoot others, he probably targeted the mostly gun-free zone. so eliminating guns is notthe solution. so 141-page manifesto authored by rodger surfacedon the internet last night which i have gone through and we will talk about. there are107,000 plus words. rodger told his life story

which he described as "a dark one of sadness,anger and hatred." so elliot's father, peter rodger, is the sonof a famous photographer who was actually the first photographer to take pictures duringthe liberation of the concentration camps in ashwoods at the end of the second worldwar. previously, they were british royalty. they lost their money in the great depressionof the 1930s but peter, elliot's father, started working with his own father and became a photographerand then later of course a director. so he writes: "my father, peter rodger, wasonly 26 when he impregnated my mother, chin, who was 30." he says, "my mother is of chinesedescent. she was born in malaysia and moved to england at a young age to work as a nurseon several film sets where she became friends

with very important individuals in the filmindustry, including george lucas and steven spielberg. she even dated george lucas fora short time." and there's a picture of this woman with harrison ford and george lucasfloating around on the internet. "my mother and father," he says, "had beenmarried for a couple of years before my mother became pregnant with me. in fact, her pregnancywas an accident. she had been taking pills to prevent pregnancy, but when she visitedmy father on one of his film sets, she fell ill and the medication she took for that illnessthwarted the effect of the anti-pregnancy pills, so their lovemaking during this periodresulted in my life." i don't mean to be a nag. i don't mean toportray myself as some sort of a parenting

expert, but i will generally say to parentsthat if your child is conceived accidentally, please shut up about it with your child. donot tell a child that he or she was conceived accidentally. that is not appropriate informationto share with the child in any way, shape or form. so he writes: "at the time that i was born,my mother and father were living in a house in london, but shortly after my birth theydecided to move to the countryside [in sussex]. my father was a professional photographerat the time, just in the stage of becoming a director. my mother gave up her nursingcareer to stay home and look after me. "for preschool, i was enrolled at dorsetthouse, an upscale all-boys private school

in the countryside near where we lived." now, i did look this up from year four toyear eight, dorsett house does offer boarding school but it wouldn't have been appropriateor enacted for elliot when he was this young. i know a little bit myself was sent to boardingschool when i was six, and it can be a little bit on the destabilizing side to say the least. so elliot goes on to say: "i was forced towear a uniform, which i hated because i had to wear uncomfortable socks up to my knees.i was very nervous and i cried on my first day there. i didn't like school at dorsetthouse very much." so this is important. there's a certain ethicalapproach to parenting which goes along the

lines of "well, i know what's best for you;and therefore, i don't have to listen to what you don't like." i consider this appallingparenting -- appalling parenting. you listen to the child. if the child is crying and doesn'twant to go away to school, then that is something you need to take into account. it doesn'tmean you have to indulge your child's every whim. it's not sort of one extreme to theother, but these are important things to listen to with regard to your children. each particular incident, not the end of theworld but when you accumulate them together, they can cause significant problems, in myopinion. he writes: "my favorite childhood film wasthe land before time. it was about a baby

dinosaur named littlefoot who had just losthis mother and was journeying through a dangerous world to find the 'great valley,' a land ofprosperity and peace." he said: "i remember the feeling of uttersadness i felt during the scene when his mother died, and the triumphant and happy emotionsthat swept over me when he finally discovered the great valley after going through all thehardship to get there. it was a big part of my childhood." now, his mother did not die but one thingthat's true about infants is if they are put into care or separated from their mother formore than 20 hours a week, studies show, they experience exactly the same symptoms as ifthey've been actually abandoned by their mother.

so if he was away, as i imagine he was, whenhe was very young for more than 20 hours a week, it's possible that he may have experiencedthe same symptoms of maternal abandonment, and this is why he was so emotional when hewatched an animated film about a baby dinosaur whose mother had died. "at four years old," he says, "i went on atrip to spain with my parents and my parents' friends patrick and lupe. it was the fourthcountry i've been to at such a young age. we stayed in an exquisite castle-like housethat i believe was owned by a friend of ours. the house had a tower that i was extremelycurious about. at one point, my parents and their friends ventured up to the top of it,but they made me stay below because i was

too young. i was sorely disappointed." again, i'm trying not to make mountains outof molehills but to me it's instructive that the parents decide to climb the tower andleave a 4-year-old alone. i have been a stay-at-home dad now for five and a half years. when mychild was four, i would not leave my child unattended particularly in a strange placewhere they could potentially be in danger. so it's like, "well, we want to climb up.you stay here." well, just carry the child in your arms and climb up or one of you hasto stay behind but you don't leave the child alone. "as they were climbing the tower," he says,"i went outside to look at the cacti surrounding

the house. these cacti also sparked my curiosity,and i foolishly decided to touch a cactus. i ended up getting cactus needles all overmy hand, and it took a long time for my mother to remove them. "i believe that it was during the time aftermy 4th birthday that my father came to the decision to eventually move to the unitedstates. as he was just becoming a director, he believed los angeles would offer more opportunities. "it was also during this time that my motherbecame pregnant again. i was going to have a sibling. my parents decided to have anotherbaby, this pregnancy being planned, so that i can have a sibling to grow up with. we laterdiscovered it was going to be a girl."

now, recognizing the mind field of the work-familylife balance, i wanted to also mention that if you are an extremely ambitious person andyou want nothing more than to make a name for yourself and work crazy hours in distantlocations may not be the best recipe for having a strong bond with a child. in my again admittedly amateur opinion, therewas not a strong bond between elliot and his father or his mother or his stepmother aswe'll find out later. and as a result, children need to attach to something. if they don'tget vertical attachments, they will aim for horizontal attachments. in other words, ifthey cannot attach to their parents, they will try to attach desperately because we'resocial animals, we're tribal animals. they

would try to attach to their peers. if theyare rejected by their parents or their feelings are not taken into consideration by theirparents and they are also rejected by their peers, then they face the internal rot ofisolation without social feedback to prevent the accumulation of negative thoughts whichwe again will talk about in a little bit. "starting at six years old i had to witnessmy mother and father get into a lot of arguments. at some point i learned about the possibilitythat parents can separate," he says, "divorce... no longer live together." it's interesting how he writes about theseyears later almost like a child discovering that his parents can separate, divorce, nolonger live together. it's almost like he's

reenacting his experience of learning aboutit at about six or seven years old. "the prospect baffled my little mind. i oncesat down with my mother on our outside deck and asked her if she and father would everdivorce. she told me it will never happen and that i had nothing to worry about. i wasrelieved by that. little did i know such a thing would happen in only a few months' time. "my last memory of my parents being togetherwas my seventh birthday, and i would always cherish it. my parents seemed happy that day.it would be the last time i remember them being happy together. i couldn't even fathomthe possibility of my parents separating. "very shortly after my seventh birthday, thenews came. i believe it was my mother who

told me that she and my father were gettinga divorce; my mother, who only a few months before told me that such a thing would neverhappen. i was absolutely shocked, outraged, and above all, overwhelmed. this was a hugelife-changing event." when you have a strong bond with your parentsyou can handle the vicissitudes of life, the randomness, the ups and downs of life a lotbetter. when you don't, feeling overwhelmed by life's changes particularly negative changeslike a divorce i think is much easier to feel overwhelmed. "my father was to stay at the round house,and my mother would move to another smaller house in topanga. it was arranged that meand my sister will mostly be living with our

mother, and we would go to father's houseon the weekends. my father was required to pay child support to my mother so that shecan look after us. "my life would change forever after this.the family i grew up with has split in half, and from then on i would grow up in two differenthouseholds. i remember crying. all the happy times i spent with my mother and father asa family were gone, only to remain in memory. it was a very sad day." now, i'm not even remotely of course tryingto suggest that divorce causes mass murder because there are hundreds of millions ofchildren of divorce around the world and very few of them will ever become mass murderers,but we are looking at the number of straws

on the camel's back, the straw that breaksthe camel's back. we're looking at the number of problems in the dominoes that lead to thepulling of the trigger. he writes: "after only a couple of months,a new and very important person would come into my life. after father picked us up fromschool one day and took us to his house, i saw a woman with dark hair and fair skin standingin the kitchen, and she introduced herself as soumaya. she would become my stepmother.father told me she would be living with us from now on." again, i'm not any kind of child psychologistbut doesn't it seem to you absolutely shocking that the father would bring a woman to comeand live with the family a few months after

the divorce with no warning, just saying,"here's the new stepmom. she's moving in." now, my guess -- and again this is only aguess -- if a woman says, "we're not getting divorce" and then is divorced a few monthslater, it's almost always because she found out that an affair was occurring. so my guessis the father had an affair with soumaya, the mother found out, and there was a divorce,and then soumaya moved in. this is a true callousness towards the needsof the children which can only result from pathologically self-absorbed people in pursuitof their own pleasure -- the mother and, in this case, the stepfather. "well, i'm lonely.this woman is moving in. you've never met her." just tell the child, there's no gentleintroduction, there's no slow building of

trust and there's no chance of grieving ormourning; and so this is incredibly destructive to children. "my father having a girlfriend," he writes,"so shortly after divorcing my mother didn't even occur to me. i couldn't understand it.soon enough, though, i realized that soumaya was, in fact, his girlfriend and they weretogether just like how my father and mother were together. it was the first time i learnedthe concept of a girlfriend and it was hard to grasp. before that, i always thought aman and a woman had to be married before living together in such a manner, and that it wouldtake a long time for such a union to happen. father finding a new girlfriend in such ashort amount of time baffled me. i was completely

taken aback." now, these kinds of gaps in understandingfor children are extremely difficulty. i mean difficult for adults as well. if the fatherhad said, "i was seeing this woman before we got divorced and it caused the divorce"and so on, that would have been more honest and would have made more sense to the child,although of course it would have made the child very angry at his father, if this didin fact happen. or if soumaya, she's actually quite a famous actress from morocco, froma very prominent moroccan family; she appeared in a film with matt damon and she was in somefrench reality television show and so on. but if there's already a child -- in fact,there are two children here -- you don't just

move in unannounced that you're going to bethe new mommy. "because of my father's acquisition of a newgirlfriend, my little mind got the impression that my father was a man that women foundattractive, as he was able to find a new girlfriend in such a short period of time from divorcingmy mother. i subconsciously held him in higher regard because of this. it is very interestinghow this phenomenon works; that males who can easily find female mates garner more respectfrom their fellow men, even children. how ironic is it that my father, one of thosemen who could easily find a girlfriend, has a son who would struggle all his life to finda girlfriend." there is, i imagine or i hypothesize, a significantamount of sexual dysfunction on the part of

the father and his girlfriend, soumaya. i'mnot going to reproduce the pictures here but on the father's, on peter rodger's websitethere are endless pictures of his naked wife's butt. that is -- i'm sorry -- the stepmother,his girlfriend's butt. it's crazy. i mean, okay, she's got a nice butt but you don'tphotograph it and put it out all over for the world to see. anybody who logs on to hiswebsite has a look. that is to me very disturbed. it's a lack of boundaries because it's ofcourse it's the kind of stuff that your children will find quite quickly online if they havea mind to. you know your father's name. you go on and look at pictures and then you canbasically see your mother's butt and half of vagina hanging out -- or your stepmother'sbutt and half of vagina hanging out. that

is i think fairly disturbing and indicates-- i mean what kind of woman would allow for that to happen? i mean they staged all ofthese elaborate pictures of soumaya shaking her butt at a camera and published them onthe web with no age restriction or anything like that. what kind of woman would allowfor this to occur? well, we know that recently pamela anderson,who has been a professional sexpot, revealed the history of sexual abuse. could that bethe case with soumaya? it's hard to know but it certainly would fit. he writes: "for the initial period of herbeing a new member of the family, we got along well, and she was quite fun. but soon shewould start to discipline me in a harsh way

that i wasn't used to. i felt that becauseshe wasn't my real parent, she had no right to discipline me in such a way, and so i rebelled.that's where the first conflicts arose. there would be many more to come in later years." i've decided not to include some stuff i foundon the web which was supposedly him writing about soumaya because i couldn't verify itand it seems so horrendous that i wouldn't want to talk about it. but there does seemto be some significant harsh discipline that has occurred. psychologically speaking, astepparent who arrives after the child who's four or five years old cannot be the primarydisciplinarian at all. you can only discipline in the shadow of the biological parent andso this is a recipe for disaster.

elliot wrote: "i hated the rules she imposedon me, which i believed she had no right to impose. i hated how she would force me todrink milk every morning and very foul-tasting soup for dinner. i made such a fuss abouthaving the soup that she used it as a punishment. whenever i did something wrong, she wouldforce me to drink the soup" well, so this is expressing a preference resultsin a kind of sadistic punishment. "i really don't like the soup." "aha! now that you'vetold this to me, i am going to use the taste of the soup as punishment for you." this utterlybreaks down the capacity for connection and revelation between parent and child for thatmatter. but on the plus side, she had a really nice butt.

"soumaya's parents were also divorced." and again, you can see these kinds of rippleeffects in families all the time. he wrote: "after spending a nice week at mother'shouse, i would cry when sunday came and i had to go to father's on monday. i would thenspend the entire week at father's house..." now, originally, he was at the mother's duringthe week and the father's, it switched around a lot i guess. "i would then spend the entire week at father'shouse looking forward to going back to my mother's. i remember those mondays when mymother dropped me off at school for the first day of father's week. i felt so sad that icried when i saw my mother's car driving away.

of course, i would hide the tears to avoidembarrassment at school, but i would feel miserable for that whole day." and again, here you see a child whose needsare not being listened to, are not being attended to and the parents are not troubling to inconveniencethemselves and their own ambitions and preferences for the sake of what the child needs. thechild is not getting emotional mirroring. he's not getting empathy. he's not being taughtsympathy. he's not being listened to and consulted. he's being treated as an object, a hot potatoto be passed around. this is not good for the development of a child. "age 6," he writes, "my father's new directingcareer was taking off quite well too, and

he would go away a lot to direct commercialsfor prestigious companies, leaving my mother and the nanny to look after me. the only downsideof this was my father's absence from my life." paternal abandonment is terrible and terrifyingparticularly for children of divorce. "age 10: at mother's house, all of my needswere met with excellent precision, whereas at father's house, there would always be atime delay because father and soumaya had less time for me, and paid less attentionto me. "age 15: my father decided to invest all ofhis money in his first feature film, a documentary named 'oh my god.' to make it, he took offto travel all over the world for a few months. despite this, the one week-one week custodyarrangement remained, and during father's

week i had to stay at father's house withonly soumaya." this was a movie where peter flew around theworld and interviewed celebrities about their thoughts about god. in an interview, i watchedpeter on television. he said that he found organized religion extremely dangerous. well,apparently not his son so i want to reorient that a little. "age 19," elliot writes, "my father effectivelyabandoned me at one of my most crucial points in my life. though in fact, he was never reallypresent in my life to abandon me in the first place. when i think about it, he was alwaysabsent from my life. when my whole world took a downward spiral into darkness after i hitpuberty, he never made any effort to save

me. he just didn't care." both of elliot's parents are very good-lookingalthough to my view peter has this crazy tarantino eyes and a smile that only a terminator couldfind humane. but the fact that elliot had such rage, it wasn't just rage against women.he hated everybody. he hated women. he hated the men who had access to those women andhe hated anyone who is good-looking and having fun because he didn't actually have the abilityor never learned the ability to say, "i'm not getting what i want in my life. what cani do to change?" that it was the universe's job to provide him with what he wanted andwhen the universe did not provide him what he wanted, he got to rail against the universeand rage against all the people who withheld

everything that he wanted. and that's notof course a good mindset to be in but... peter said about this pursuit of this documentarythat for two and a half years he was largely absent and his family paid the price. thisis when i say, if you have met huge ambitions that are going to consume you for 80 hoursa week and make you travel all over the place, then you may not want to be having the kids,right? i mean your first duty as a parent is towards the children, not to your own ambitions. now, height is one of the great challenges.i recently had a woman on my show who objected about men's objectification of women, butwomen of course generally prefer a man who's taller than them and of course they like towear heels as well. so this is the number

for women that is more challenges if the manis short. so he was half white and half asian and sohe wrote: "i was very small and short statured for my age. i never gave this much concernduring my early childhood, but this fact fully dawned on me the day my family took a tripto universal studios. "when reaching the front of a line for a popularride, the park staff presented me with a measuring stick and i didn't fit the requirements. isaw other boys my age admitted onto the ride, but i was denied because i was too short!the ride that i was so excited to enjoy at the theme park was forbidden to me. i immediatelyfell into a crying tantrum, and my mother had to comfort me."

so again, he lacks emotional self-managementand self-regulation. he also lacks emotional preparation. this is the kind of thing thatthe parents should have talked to him about beforehand knowing that this was going tobe an issue. "being denied entry on a simple amusementpark ride due to my height may seem like only a small injustice, but it was big for me attime. little did i know, this injustice was very small indeed compared to all the thingsi'll be denied in the future because of my height." he views humanity as having a huge amountof fun like he's watching a beer commercial thinking that that's everybody's life andhe's denied it and they're denying him that

life and laughing at him. and so the amusementpark called adult life, adult sexuality, dating, romance, career and so on is denied to himbecause of his height. so this i think was a brick wall to the degree to which he mayhave been denied access to women because of his height -- certainly, the kind of womenthat he wanted the blonde goddess that this little racist was obsessed by. "i became extremely annoyed at how everyonewas taller than me, and how the tallest boys were automatically respected more. it instilledthe first feelings of inferiority in me, and such feelings would only grow more volatilewith time. "i desperately wanted to get taller, and iread that playing basketball increases height.

this sparked my brief interest in basketball,and i would play it all the time during recess and lunch in the upper. most of the basketballcourts were unused, so i would play it by myself, or with anyone who cared to join me.during my time at father's, i would spend hours playing basketball at father's basketballcourt, shooting hoop after hoop long into the evening, and i also remember lying onthe ground in the basketball court trying to stretch my body as much as i could in betweenbasketball sessions." i mean don't you get a grim sense of justcomplete isolation from this young man? he's not talking to anyone about his problems.he's not confessing his insecurities and so on.

"when i played basketball at school, someboys would join me, and when they did i saw that they were much better at the sport thanme. i envied their ability to throw the ball at double the distance than i could. thismade me realize that along with being short, i was physically weak compared to other boysmy age. even boys younger than me were stronger. this vexed me to no end." i mean vex is not a word that you find outof 19th century novels a lot. he wrote: "by nature, i am a very jealousperson." this is very interesting when he says "by nature." he doesn't ascribe muchto environment. he ascribes a lot -- and certainly doesn't ascribe anything to his own choices.so everything is being done unto him by the

environment or it's his nature. "by nature, i'm a very jealous person." andjealousy arises out of a feeling of instability and uncertainty in relationships particularlyprimary caregiver relationships. so his mom was there and then he was sent to school andthen his mom was gone and then this other women moved in. he had a series of nanniesso there's just no place for this young man or this young boy and this young man to bond.and when you feel insecurity in the bond that you have with people then you're going tofeel jealousy. i mean i've been happily married for 11 yearsand i feel no jealousy with regard to my wife. i know that she loves me and is attractedto me and there's never any question. i go

on trips, to speaking engagements to americaand europe. there's never any question of jealousy because our bond is incredibly strongand more certain to me than the functioning of gravity tomorrow. so he says, "by nature, i'm a very jealousperson." so the question of course a self-reflective person would ask a person in pursuit of socrates'first dictum "know thyself" would say, "why am i jealous?" and would read about attachmentdisorders and so on. but he says "by nature." it's just the way it is. "during playdates, sometimes a friend wouldhave other friends over as well, and i would feel very jealous and upset when he paid moreattention to them. feeling left out, i would

find a quiet corner and start crying. my motherand kim," i believe that is a friend or a nanny, "were very understanding and did thebest they could to console me. "jealousy and envy -- these are two feelingsthat would dominate my entire life and bring me immense pain. the feelings of jealousyi felt at nine years old were frustrating, but they were nothing compared to how i wouldfeel once i hit puberty and have to watch girls choosing other boys over me. any problemi had at nine years old was nirvana compared to what i was doomed to face." see, again, "doomed to face," there's no choice,there's no possibility of change. these are just things that by nature he is doomed toface. and the way that he programs himself,

neuro-linguistically you can see this in thevideos and i've decided not to put pictures or videos in here because i don't really wantto give the guy anymore publicity, but i think it's important to understand his thought processrather than listen to him. of course, you can find him, if you want, online. but he keeps programming himself. he keepsreinforcing his own prejudices by saying, "it's terribly unfair. it's terribly unjust.people are taking things from me." and you can see him building this world in which heis an innocent victim. "i am magnificent. i am like a god. why would women choose anyoneother than me? they're sluts. they're whores," like the way that he just stokes the fireof his own rage, which is to me an empty flame

hanging over a lack of maternal and paternalattachment. it's very important that you are consciousof the language that you use to describe your life, to describe the world, to describe yourrelationships, to describe yourself. we are creatures built on a house of cards of language,and the language that you choose in your life becomes really who you are and how you interactwith people. and you can see, if you watch his videos, how he builds this savage towerof hatred syllable by syllable, word by repetition. as he continues: "as my fourth grade yearapproached its end, my little nine-year-old self had another revelation about how theworld works. i realized that there were hierarchies and that some people were better than others.

"when i became aware of this common socialstructure at my school, i also started to examine myself and compare myself to these'cool kids.' i realized, with some horror, that i wasn't 'cool' at all." well, try coming to the canadian colonieswhen you're 11 with a british accent. "this revelation about the world, and aboutmyself, really decreased my self-esteem. i envied the cool kids, and i wanted to be oneof them. i was a bit frustrated at my parents for not shaping me into one of these kidsin the past. they never made an effort to dress me in stylish clothing or get me a good-lookinghaircut. i had to make every effort to rectify this. i had to adapt."

and again, his parents seem to be looks obsessed.hollywood actors, you know, they're looks obsessed. the shallow materialism, the rampanthypersexuality, the kid destroying violence of the hunger games -- these all create aweb within the world and particularly within the mind of a child. the fact that his fatherrose to significant prominence and fame while assistant directing on a movie about the murderof teenagers, of children really, is not inconsequential, right? he models himself after his father.he says that this is who you have to be to get women. and it is so -- for people who are looks obsessedand shallow and very focusing on presentation, it seems strange that they would not have-- if his reporting is right that they would

not have worked to make their child as attractiveas possible. "my first act was to ask my parents to allowme to bleach my hair blonde. i always envied and admired blonde-haired people, they alwaysseemed so much more beautiful. my parents agreed to let me do it. my new hair turnedout to be quite a spectacle, and for a few days i got a hint of the attention and admirationi so craved. "i then started to notice that all of thecool kids were interested in skateboarding. i had never even ridden on a skateboard before,but if i wanted to be cool, i had to become a skateboarder. this was the start of an obsessionto copy everything the supposed 'cool kids' were doing."

this cool element is an absolutely leprouscancer in the heart of society and is responsible for massive amounts of bullying and suicidalityand rage and violence. cool is not virtuous. it's not honest. it's not good. it's not kind.it's not compassionate. it's not morally brave. it's just slouchy, sneery, empty tricks andaccidental looks and wealth and so on. the cool aspect to childhood is truly murderousto the true self, to the authentic connection that children can have. the important thingis how many times you can flip a stupid board with wheels in the air and landing it correctly,not the degree to which you advance them on a course of the species by being in pursuitof moral excellence. and this shallowness of course is intenselyreinforced, if not downright generated, by

a hyper materialistic, hyper empty, hyperbeauty obsessed and hyper violent and hyper sexualized hollywood style culture. it ishorrifying how this bladed boomerang has sort of come back to haunt a media superstar family. "at eleven years old," he writes, "i was enjoyinga lovely summer, but suddenly my mother said that i had to go to summer camp. i didn'tlike this one bit. it was a last minute decision. one moment i was relaxing and enjoying mysummer break. the next my mother is waking me up early to take me to my first day ofcamp." and again, we see this can't trust, can'trelax, can't is not prepared for things, is not aware of what's coming down the road.everything is bam! just comes in out of nowhere

like hammers materialize and thump the sideof the head out of nowhere, and this is not good parenting. i'm sorry. you need to preparechildren for these kinds of changes and be alert to how it's going to affect them andwhat's going to happen. "at this camp, an incident happened that wouldscar me for life. the first time that i was treated badly by a girl occurred at this camp.i was innocently playing with the friends i made, and they were tickling me, somethingpeople always did because i was very ticklish. i accidently bumped into a pretty girl thesame age as me, and she got very angry. she cursed at me and pushed me, embarrassing mein front of my friends. i didn't know who this girl was but she was very pretty, andshe was taller than me. i immediately froze

up and went into a state of shock. one ofmy friends asked me if i was okay, and i didn't answer. i remained very quiet for the restof the day." now, i mean maybe this little witch was crueland mean to him but this is not something that is not going to scar you for life unlessit is something that has occurred to you many times before. and both his stepmother andhis mother are very attractive women and are cold and cruel, at least the stepmother isby his report. he doesn't say much about his mother, but his mother did just wake him upout of nowhere and say, "you're going to camp," which is pretty cold. so these kinds of occurrences only resonateif there's already that chord playing in your

heart. it harmonizes with an existing dirgein your soul. "i couldn't believe what had happened. crueltreatment from women is ten times worse than from men. it made me feel like an insignificant,unworthy little mouse. i felt so small and vulnerable. i couldn't believe that this girlwas so horrible to me, and i thought that it was because she viewed me as a loser. thatwas the first experience of female cruelty," i guess he means peer cruelty female cruelty,"i endured, and it traumatized me to no end. it made me even more nervous around girls,and i would be extremely weary and cautious of them from that point on." and again, there was no way for him to processthis because somebody needed to help him to

understand that a girl or a woman who is beautifulphysically but emotionally abusive or cruel is not a price that you want. he didn't wantto just have an empty sex. he wanted a girlfriend and so on. and so to allow your base lizardbrain to point you at particular facial features and body types and not to be in pursuit ofvirtue with sexuality as its pet is not a healthy way to approach things and that hewas not missing out on much by not being able to get with pretty little cruel cruella devils. but again, he didn't have anyone around who could help him process that, at leastnot that he reports. "one time while i was alone at a video arcade,i saw an older teenager watching pornography." and that seems odd to me. i mean a video arcadedoes not usually -- i've never seen a video

arcade with pornography. i guess maybe theolder teenager was watching pornography on an ipad or something. my only hope is thatthe older teenager wasn't on peter rodger's website looking at pictures of his stepmom'sass and crotch. he said, "i didn't know anything about sexat the time. to see this video really traumatized me. i had no idea what i was seeing. i couldn'timagine human beings doing such things with each other. the sight was shocking, traumatizing,and arousing. all of these feelings mixed together took a great toll on me. i walkedhome and cried by myself for a bit. i felt too guilty about what i saw to talk to myparents about it. i was quite shaken for a few days."

he doesn't exactly say what age. he seemsto be in his teens because he says older teenager so he's probably 13 or 14. now, a child shouldnot be at the age of 13 or 14 and have no idea what sexuality is and you certainly don'twant your children being exposed to pornography as their first view of human sexuality. that'slike introducing them to hamburger by taking them to a slaughterhouse. and so this is he's not prepare for and thisis part of ignoring, him being ignored, being ignored, being ignored, his needs not beingmet and his parents not preparing him for anything -- preparing him to go to school,preparing him to go to a new country, preparing him to go to summer camp. there's no preparationand so things are just impacting this young

man like joe louis fist to the nads. "this was among the very first glimpses ihad of sex. finding out about sex is one of the things that truly destroyed my entirelife. sex -- the very word fills me with hate. once i hit puberty, i would always want it,like any other boy. i would always hunger for it, i would always covet it, i would alwaysfantasize about it. but i would never get it. not getting any sex is what will shapethe very foundation of my miserable youth. this was a very dark day." so he doesn't really know anything about sexand that he sees pornography and an older teenager watching pornography at a video arcadeis most likely a pedophile or a pedophile

in the making trolling for young boys or younggirls to sexually stimulate with pornography in order to prey upon them sexually. that'smy guess. it's just such an unusual thing to do at an arcade, of all things. and sothis is a terrible way. and of course, if his father had affairs orif his father basically acted on lust and given his fetishistic photographing of hisgirlfriend's butt and publishing it online, sexuality could be considered what may havebeen unconsciously processed by the child as what destroyed the marriage. so he wantsto be like his father and get women but at the same time his father's sexual desiresmay have destroyed the marriage or undermined the marriage and so on.

at 14 years old, he started masturbating anddeveloped a very high sex drive, which is odd that it would be so late for so long andthen bang at 14 it sort of comes out at the gate charging, so to speak. he writes: "this was the start of hell forme. going through puberty utterly doomed my existence. it condemned me to live a lifeof suffering and unfulfilled desires. even at that young age, i felt depressed becausei wanted sex, yet i felt unworthy of it. i didn't think i was ever going to experiencesex in reality, and i was right. i never did. i was finally interested in girls, but therewas no way i could ever get them. and so my starvation began."

now, he was i think 5'7". he apparently hascomplained online about having a 4-inch penis and he was like 135 pounds soaking wet. sohe was a pretty small guy and he aimed at what he called these blonde goddesses likethe 10s. he's in l.a. which is not unknown to have attractive women walking the streets. so the question is why would -- i mean i thinkhe was actually a very good-looking kid and why would a short slight insecure guy aimat the 10s? because he was reenacting humiliation. the goal in his sexual pursuit was to reenacthumiliation, female humiliation which i assume comes from his early childhood and he didn'thave anyone to help him with this tragically. but it seems pretty clear, at least to me.of course, in hindsight it's easy and i recognize

all of that, all the caveats in the world. but he was, you know, i mean he came froma rich and famous family. he was -- you can see videos of him online walking with hisstepmom and his dad at the red carper premiere for the hunger games. he was at the red carperpremieres for all the star wars prequels. he was at a private katy perry concert. hewas constantly tweeting videos of him in his bmw which his mother bought him and with his$300 giorgio armani sunglasses and photographs of him relaxing in first class in planes.i'm 47 years old. i've traveled all over the world and never flown first class. and so if he wanted to have sex, then he couldhave simply set his sights lower. i mean that's

what you do. you try to get the most attractiveperson that you can get generally when you're a teenager and if you can't get the 10s, yougo for the 9's. and if you cannot get the 9's, you go for the 8's. and you keep goingdown until you get sex. but his goal was self-humiliation, to continue a life of being ignored and treatedwith contempt and treated with indifference by women because i assume that his motherand stepmother had those tendencies. and he complains about them directly, at least someof them. so the goal of his sexuality was self-humiliation.it was a masochistic drive. it was not actual desire for women who are out of his league.it was to strive to connect with a woman who would treat him with scorn and contempt becausea lot of young women who are gorgeous feel

actually quite insulted when what they viewas a beta or even lower on the male hierarchy of attractiveness approaches them. and sohe was reenacting cruelty from his early life at the hands of women and there was no one,it seems, who was able to help and to understand this and deal with the original humiliation. at six years old, elliot rodger discoveredvideo games which would later grow into an all-consuming obsession as he tried to escapefrom his life. i'm not blaming video games. we have hundreds of millions of video gameplayers around the world. they don't become shooters. but again we're looking at the strawson the camel's back. at twelve years old, rodger discovered worldof warcraft and that would develop from an

interest into a fourteen hour per day all-consumingobsession. he says, "this was the point when my sociallife ended completely. i would never have a satisfying social life ever again. it wasthe beginning of a very lonely period of my life, in which my only social interactionswould be online through video games. the ability to play video games with people online temporarilyfilled the social void. i got caught up in it, and i was too young and naã¯ve to realizethe severity of how far i had fallen. i was too scared to accept it. this loss of a sociallife, coupled with the advent of puberty, caused me to die a little inside. it was toomuch for me to handle, and i stopped caring about my life and my future. i even stoppedcaring about what people thought of me. i

hid myself away in the online world of warcraft,a place where i felt comfortable and secure." he played world of warcraft on his stepmother'scomputer and apparently she had pushed back some resistance against this for him but itprobably just turned into a few play world of warcraft, "i'll make you eat my evil moroccansoup" or something. it probably was not actually something where she would try to get to someof the root causes of the problems because she probably would have found at least somepart of a mirror in that. "the 4th of july of this year was the dayi saved my little brother's life from drowning." he was fifteen years old at the time. "theparty was a pool party, and my half brother jazz had full exposure to the swimming pool.he had already learned how to walk, but he

couldn't swim. at one instance as i was eatinglunch, i saw jazz quickly run off from the adults, completely unattended. i then watchedas he curiously examined the water and then descended into steps of the shallow end ofthe pool. before long, he lost his footing on the steps and his whole body sank intothe water." this reminds me of the parents leaving, themother and father leaving elliot unattended while they climbed the castle tower when heended up grabbing a cactus and getting his hands stuck. this lack of attention, thislack of attentiveness to children is to me endemic of or emblematic of an entirely problematicattachment from parent to child. he said, "nobody noticed. he was going todrown, i thought with panic. i ran as fast

as i could, plunging into the water with myclothes still on and pulled him out. i asked him how he was doing, and he coughed up somewater and told me he felt fine. the only person who saw this happen was a little girl whowas swimming in the shallow end. i saved his life, and my brother remembers it to thisvery day. every single second of my brother's life, everything that happens to him in thefuture, will exist because i pulled him out of the water that day." now, i mean this is completely heartbreakingwhen you think about it that in a matter of seven years this young man went from savinglives to taking them, from having an instinctual panic about somebody being harmed or drowningto going on a murderous rampage where he slaughters

nine people and then just seven more and thentakes his own life. i don't know if there's any particular answer.i'm not going to provide some possible hints. i don't have any skills or capacity to giveany answers if they're even possible. if the rumors about how he was treated by his stepmotherwere true then that would be very clear but they're unsubstantiated as far as i couldsee. but he did go from saving lives to taking them, and that is important for us to understandthat. "my sex drive was at its peak at this age.whenever i got back from school, i had to masturbate. the urge was too strong. duringmy masturbation sessions i often built elaborate fantasies in my mind that i had a hot, blonde-hairedgirlfriend to have passionate sex with; almost

like having an imaginary girlfriend. i toldno one about this." and again, you can see this isolation. "in fact, i didn't talk to my parents at allabout my sexual development. i felt too guilty and embarrassed about it. whenever they probedme, i lied to them, telling them that i had no sex drive. my mother once caught me lookingat pictures of girls online, and i franticly had to convince her that i stumbled on thosepictures by accident." again, you can't start talking with your kidswhen they're 15. you have to have the conversation -- i started chatting with my daughter whenshe was still in her mother's womb for heaven's sakes. you have to have conversations thatgo on for years. before you can talk about

the difficult things, you need to talk aboutthe easy things. you can't just jump in the deep end without having that connection withyour children. at sixteen years old, rodger threatened tocommit suicide after hearing about a peer's social life. his father, soumaya and severalfriends talked with him for three hours to cheer him up." threatening to commit suicide is a very seriousthing. suicide, of course, is self-murder. it is not exactly the opposite of the murderof others. you can't murder others unless you've been killed inside yourself. at onepoint, his parents basically said, "oh, your stepmother is going to morocco and you'regoing with her too." and he railed against

it. he was upset about it. he tried to runaway. his father caught him and trapped him and he went to morocco. he complained so much that after a week hismother from england came to go and get him; and again just feeling jumped by other people'sneeds and unprepared for anything. this is not a child whose needs for connection andpreparation. he may have been more sensitive than most but you parent the child that youhave, not the child that you wish you had. and if he was more sensitive to change, idon't think he was, but if he was, then you parent for that reality of how his personalityis, perhaps even genetically. his father's film project took peter to 23and he sat and interviewed but the previous

three years had been tough on his family.he included elliot in the onscreen credits along with his sister georgia. he said, "i put my family through a lot ofdifficulties making this film because i was away a long time." and this is the paternalabandonment that is unfelt. elliot rodger had regular issues at schoolwith bullying, anxiety and an inability to make friends. he detailed multiple occasionswhere he would yell, cry and refuse to get out of his parent's car and enter the schoolbuilding. eventually, he would end up in the classroom as expected." and again, the child is being bullied. it'sa pretty toxic environment especially for

the smaller kids, the kids who -- physicallyhe looked like a 13-year-old. it is rough. this is a pretty lord of the flies peer bullying,lowest common denominator of emotional development environment. and for a sensitive to be shovedinto that, it's just rough. his parents also set him up for social failureat various points, by switching him to different schools and taking long summer vacations whichlead to him entering class long after the other students. this further exacerbated hisinability to make friends and to fit into social situations. he describes his high school experience below: "as i expected, i failed to make any new friends.i was so overwhelmed by the brutality of the

world that i just didn't care anymore. onthe very first week, i had my first experience of true bullying. some horrible twelfth graderssaw me as a target because i looked like a ten-year-old and i was physically weak. theythrew food at me during lunchtime and after school. it enraged me, but i was too scaredto do anything about it. what kind of horrible, depraved people would poke fun at a boy youngerthan them who has just entered high school? i thought to myself. "they teased me because i was scared of girls,calling me names like 'faggot'. people also liked to steal my belongings and run awayin an attempt to get me to chase after them. and i did chase after them in a furious rage,but i was so little and weak that they thought

it was comical. i hated everyone at that schoolso much." oh, what can i say? i mean this bullying isappalling and atrocious and inevitable. there are schools where there's more mixed age groupsand so on which seems to bring out more compassion, more empathy in the older kids but particularlywest schools are segregated by age, there seems to be a big problem. "it got to a point," he said, "where i hadto wait in a quiet corner for the hallway to clear before i could walk to class. i alsotook long routes around the school to avoid bullies. my parents began to consider notletting me continue there after ninth grade." bullies pick on children without parentalbonds. i think this is absolutely inevitable

and the best way to protect your childrenfrom bullying or from pedophiles or from exploitation or other forms of abuse to have an incrediblystrong bond with them. that creates the shield. and it is truly tragic that those who havea strong bond don't get bullied whereas they could actually survive the bullying, whereasthe children who don't have strong bonds with parents get bullied which often pushes themover the edge. so it is tragic the way that works. throughout the manifesto, rodger continuallynotes his jealously, rage and anger at the mere presence of individuals in relationships.he expresses disgust when attractive, which is normally for him blonde, women don't noticehim, yet repeatedly changed classes when somebody

he is attracted to is present out of anxiety. so this is the tortuous world that he livesin where he is so terrified of rejection by women that he's perhaps even violently attractedto them and even more violently terrified of them. and when you live in that kind oflife and desire and hatred and fear, literally pulling you in two directions, tearing youin two, life does become agony and torture and looking forward to a life of that is literallyhell itself. he says repeatedly as he talked about hisprogramming of his own perspective through repetitive uses of toxic language, he says,"i am rotting in loneliness." and when you don't have anything to live for, either suicideor murder. murder-suicide becomes much more

likely and there seems to be nobody who'shelping him with this. his parents should have known that he's likely to get bullied. he laments about talking long walks and sittingin public places where no women approach him, while not making any effort to speak withthem himself. and we don't generally live in a culture where women approach men. he's disgusted or infuriated by most men hesees women, calling them brutes or criticizing their appearance if he believes his clothingor stature to be superior. and he did sort of elevate himself into an abstract magnificentgodhood and felt that most men were a swine, were incompetent, were brutes and so on. thatis, of course, a recipe of dehumanization

or the creation of what is called "the other,"where if you can strip other human beings of human characteristics that you could sharewith them, then it becomes easier to exploit or hurt them. so here's a few of his examples: "when i drove down, i saw more young coupleswalking around, and i had the desire to run them over with the mercedes as a sweet actof revenge. "as a child, i played with childhood femalefriend as an equal. now she was my enemy. i would take great delight in torturing andflaying her and every single one of her spoiled, obnoxious evil friends."

and again, you can see him programming himselfto be capable of great atrocities. he also details multiple occasions of throwinghot coffee or beverages on women or couples and running or driving away. his violent behavior increases to the pointwhere, in a drunken stupor, he attempts to push several women off a 10-foot ledge duringa party. this, of course, is assault and possibly even attempted murder if you push someoneoff a 10-foot ledge during a party. if they're going to land on concrete, they could verywell die. he writes: "it was one of the most foolishand rash things i ever did." and notice that there's no moral content. it's just foolishand rash, not immoral or wrong or evil.

"it was one of the most foolish and rash thingsi ever did, and i almost risked everything in doing it, but i was so drunk with ragethat i didn't care. i failed to push any of them from the ledge, and the boys startedto push me, which resulted in me being the one to fall onto the street. when i landed,i felt a snap in my ankle, followed by a stinging pain. i slowly got up and found that i couldn'teven walk. i had to stumble, and stumble i did. i tried to get away from there as fastas i could. "the people in this house must have been friendswith the ones i previously fought with, for they greeted me with vicious hostility. theycalled me names like 'faggot' and 'pussy', typical things those types of scumbags wouldsay. a whole group of the obnoxious brutes

came up and dragged me onto their driveway,pushing and hitting me. i wanted to fight and kill them all. i managed to throw onepunch toward the main attacker, but that only caused them to beat me even more. i fell tothe ground where they started kicking me and punching me in the face. eventually, someother people from the street broke up the fight. i managed to have the strength to standup and stagger away." now, it probably doesn't even need to be mentionedthat he started it, that he was trying to push women off a balcony and then he playsthe victim when people beat him up. "it was the first time in my life that i hadbeen truly beaten up physically to the point where my face was bruised up. i had suffereda lot of bullying in my life, but most of

it wasn't physical. i had never been beatenand humiliated that badly. everyone in isla vista saw what happened, and it was trulyhorrific. the worst part of this whole ordeal was not getting beaten up, oh no. it was thefact that no one showed any concern. there was only one group who helped me tothe end of del playa, but after that they abandoned me. not one girl offered to helpme as i stumbled home with a broken leg, beaten and bloody. if girls had been attracted tome, they would have offered to walk me to my room and take care of me. they would haveeven offered to sleep with me to make me feel better. but no, not one girl showed an ounceof concern for me. they didn't care. no one cared about me. i was all alone."

now, i mean, this is, of course, is mad. hewas trying to assault and possibly even murder some women and he then feels the victim becausenobody cares about him. and this, of course, is kind of narcissistic entitlement that theworld owes you something and when you don't get it, that the world must be punished. andthis to me is the rage of an infant without a connection with his mother. when you are a child, when you're an infantin particular, the world does owe you. you can't get things for yourself. the world owesyou care, compassion, milk, playing, cuddling, skin on skin body contact and gentleness andsing songs and stimulation and playtime and so on. the world does owe you those things.and a baby who does not get what he wants

often explodes into crying first and theneventually anger and then eventually rage. and so when you think of him as a large infantwith fantastic verbal skill for an infant obviously, then you can understand that thesense of entitlement comes from a very early time in his life and what's appropriate toa very early time in his life. it's not appropriate when he's 16 or 17 or 18 or 20 or 20, butit is appropriate when he's six months or a year, 18 months or two or three or four.it is appropriate you are entitled and you have every right to get angry when the universe,when your caregivers do not provide you what you need because you have to tell them thatyou're unhappy, when that occurs. so this level of entitlement and this levelof madness is not mad for an infant, right?

the infant screams and then expects the parentsto be loving, and he attacks and then is offended and upset and enraged that people don't dealwith him affectionately. again, this is all highly appropriate to an infant and it showsthe degree to which legitimate unmet needs can stretch through time to the point wherehe's much more dangerous, infinitely more dangerous than an infant could ever be. his father is of british descent and his motherof chinese descent. he describes himself as "a beautiful eurasian" and continually mentionshis desire to obtain a "beautiful blonde" white girl. throughout the manifesto, he's appalled when"brutes" of different races are able to date

blonde white girls, while he remained a virgin.below are a few of many examples of such statements. "how could an ugly asian attract the attentionof a white girl, while a beautiful eurasian like myself never had any attention from them?" "karlin was half hawaiian and half mexican,and he wasn't that good looking. how on earth could he have managed to sleep with four girlsin isla vista, while i had been there for two years and had none?""how could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? i ambeautiful, and i am half white myself. i am descended from british aristocracy. he isdescended from slaves. i deserve it more. i tried not to believe his foul words, butthey were already said, and it was hard to

erase from my mind. if this is actually true,if this ugly black filth was able to have sex with a blonde white girl at the age ofthirteen while i've had to suffer virginity all my life, then this just proves how ridiculousthe female gender is. they would give themselves to this filthy scum, but they reject me? theinjustice!" it is shocking but entirely predictable thatthis is more a race crime than anything else, this murder spree in santa barbara on friday.he targeted blonde white girls and blonde -- sorry, blonde white girls and good-lookingpeople generally whites, but his hatred was for blonde white girls. and that is as mucha racial crime as it is a gender crime. the gender is the result of him being heterosexualand rejected by women but the racial element

is very specific. and if you can imagine, if a half white guyhad targeted only black women, then this would be a racial hate crime. i mean this was thezimmerman-martin thing to some degree where zimmerman was half white and there was a blackaltercation and he was continually accused of racism. it was portrayed as a race crime. so if a half white man had specifically said,"i'm going to go out and shoot black women," then this would be a racial hate crime andthere would be gender involved, of course, but the overtones would be talked about asracist. but there's no racism possible here because the victims are whites and whitescan't be the victims of racism apparently.

i mean this is i guess that's what's calledwhite privilege. but that's incredibly racist in and of itself. i just really wanted to point this out thatmost often what's most illuminating in society is what is absent from a particular discourse.and without a doubt, he continually talked about his obsession to have sex with blondewhite women, his hatred for what he viewed as inferior races having sex with blonde whitewomen and he said he wanted to go out and shoot all the blonde sluts at a particularsorority. and so this was a race crime at least as muchas it was a gender crime and yet nobody, to my knowledge, is talking about the intenseracial aspect or the race crime aspect of

this which is horribly racist. elliot has had very high financial demandexpectations for his family. he wrote extensively about how wearing designer clothing and expensivesunglasses and jewelry temporarily boosted his self-esteem and continued to think thatmoney would solve his issues with women. or as one man somewhat cruelly wrote on the web,if you are a good-looking guy from a rich hollywood royalty family in l.a. with a bmwand you can't get laid, you deserve to die a virgin. he said, "my father's movie was released,but it did not do well at all. he stupidly invested all of his money into the movie,and he got absolutely nothing out of it. what

a bitter coincidence, that right at the pointwhen my life fell even deeper into agony, my father is cursed with this financial crisis.right at the time when i needed my father's support the most, he lost all of his assets.it was as if some malevolent being cursed me with bad luck. i truly had no advantageat all. the universe was not kind to me." where is he getting all these ideas that theuniverse should respond to him? we'll find out in a moment. "i would have still preferred it if my motherhad gotten married to a wealthy man and moved into a mansion. i still continued to pesterher to do this, and she still stubbornly refused. i will always resent my mother for refusingto do this. if not for her sake, she should

have done it for mine. joining a family ofgreat wealth would have truly saved my life. i would have a high enough status to attractbeautiful girlfriends and live above all of my enemies. all of my horrific troubles wouldhave been eased instantly. it is very selfish of my mother to not consider this." so he basically wanted his mother to be ahigh-priced prostitute to raise his social and sexual status. again, at this point, hiscapacity for empathy and the panic that he showed at his brother's near death seems tohave gone completely. while in college, his mother gave him a bmw3 series coupe. his social situation remained unchanged.

where was he getting the idea that women,beautiful women were attracted to status? well, because it's all over the hollywoodscenes. it's all over the l.a. scene that beautiful women go there to milk money andstatus out of their beauty. so again, this is part of the culture that he lived in. again,i'm not saying it's causal but it is another one of the straws on the camel's back. elliot roger also later became obsessed withthe lottery, believing that the instant riches it could provide would enable him to findthe blonde white girlfriend he intensely desired. "the older i grew, the more i realized howimportant money was, and the more obsessed i would become about getting rich. this obsession,which was barely taking root at the time,

sparked a long relationship the lottery thatwould only end in disappointment and despair." here we go: "my father gave me a book calledthe secret... the book explained the fundamentals of a concept known as the law of attraction,"which is delusional and psychotic fundamentally. the idea is that you ask the universe yourstuff and the universe listens and gives it to you. and if you don't, it's your own damnfault and you have every desire -- you have every right to get angry. basically, the universe owes you a debt likeif i lend you a thousand bucks, you owe me that thousand bucks back at some point. ifyou don't pay me, then i can take you to court, right? i can get the money through small claimscourt and get the money back.

and so you put your desires out like you'relending the universe a thousand dollars and then the universe is supposed to pay you back.and when the universe doesn't pay you back, then you are not being given what you legitimatelyare owed. and the law of attraction is basically, it's the conceptual steroid pumping of theinfantile desire for legitimate entitlement turning into an adult sense of narcissisticentitlement. and it's incredibly dangerous in my humble opinion. again, lots of people have read the book.they're not mass murderers but i think it's another brick in the wall so to speak. he said, "i believed that the only way forme to attain this wealth at the time was to

win the lottery, and that is what i visualizeddoing." so if you want money, i guess one thing youcan do is go out and work really hard and try to make something of yourself or you cansit at home in your dark room and visualize lots of money coming your way. this is what'sso incredibly dangerous about it. not only does it promote a sense of entitlement andrage at not being given what you are owed, but it also paralyzes people in the pursuitof legitimate desires by telling them that it's just going to come to them somehow. he said, "i believed that it was destiny forme to win the megamillions lottery." he goes on to describe a near endless purchase ofmegamillions lottery tickets, with a high

and excitement at the prospects of winning,followed by increasingly extreme lows once the numbers were drawn and he did not win. "i sank into one of the worst depressionsof my life. it was spring break, and while all other young boys my age were going offto vacation with their attractive friends, i was feeling miserable and alone in my roombecause i failed to win the lottery jackpot that would enable me to rise above them all!" then he went that he would go across to otherstates to go and buy these things, hundreds of dollars worth of tickets and so on. he said, "i didn't win. i looked at my ticketover and over again, and then at the winning

numbers. no match. it was just like what happenedin march, except this was worse because i had built up anticipation for the entire summer.the winner was some guy from riverside. he took my money. what a waste. what an injustice." and again, i'm not saying this is exactlythe secret but this idea that the universe owes the money to you because you really wantit, and this guy took his money. "the universe gave the money to him that it should havegiven to me because i really wanted it." i mean this is not healthy stuff to be imbibing. he later discovered the powerball lotterywhich hadn't yet come to california, and this began a series of trips to arizona to purchasetickets.

"when i reached the end of my stack of tickets,i didn't find any that matched. i didn't win. i had driven all the way to arizona just tobuy lottery tickets because i was so desperate for a happy life in which girls would be attractedto me. i was so certain i would win, building up all that hope, only to have it shatteredright before me at just that moment." again, this self-talk of "the universe isbeing unkind to me. i never have any luck." just at that exact -- this is how people talkthemselves into the kind of madness. madness is setting an edifice of hysterical languageagainst a rather bland reality of things like bad luck and things like odd coincidencesand so on. and people built these like ice castles in the mountain, so to speak, againstreality and they start to go and live in that

language and reality must be punished forfailing to conform and people within it. after repeated failed attempts to win thelottery, rodger describes a tear-soaked phone conversation tantrum which deeply disturbedhis parents who then arranged for him to see a psychiatrist. starting at age thirteen, rodger describesseeing a series of psychiatrists, psychologists, coaches and counselors. many of the coachesand counselors were near his own age and would try to teach him social skills. he would oftengrow jealous and resentful of these coaches when perceiving that women were attractedto them. so again, whenever there's a possibility ofa bond, he shatters that bond, he shreds that

bond, he tears at that bond, he attacks thatbond with feelings of jealousy, hyper competitiveness and rage. so again, this is a guy to whom bonding evokesan agony of a lack of bonding. and therefore, whenever he gets close to anyone, he has tolash out because it brings him too close to whatever he experienced early on in life. "i don't know why my parents wasted moneyon therapy," he said, "as it will never help me in my struggle against such a cruel andunjust world." again, this language that he's building up over and over again. "the doctorended up dismissing it by prescribing me a controversial medication, risperidone. afterresearching this medication, i found that

it was the absolute wrong thing for me totake. i refused to take it, and i never saw psychiatrist again after that." risperidone, apparently, is an antipsychoticdrug mainly used to treat schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and irritability in people withautism. apparently, asperger's is at one end of the autism spectrum or scale, and he certainlywas irritable. then he lost his games. "the more lonely i felt, the more angry ibecame. the anger slowly built up inside me throughout all of the dark years. even afterthe release of the new world of warcraft expansion, i noticed that the game's ability to alleviatemy sense of loneliness was starting to fade.

i began to feel lonely even while playingit, and i often broke down into tears in the middle of my world of warcraft sessions. ibegan to ask myself what the point was in playing this game anymore. i spent less andless time playing it." again, i would argue amateur outside idiotopinion, i have to be sure, but i would argue that the loneliness was the result of beingthe child of parents that he didn't bond with and this ache of loneliness, this constantsubstitution of masturbation, of sexuality, of drunkenness -- he had a big problem withalcohol and video games -- these are all attempts to drug himself and escape this original lonelinessthat he probably felt in the crib. significant amounts of mental dysfunctionresult from the avoidance of legitimate suffering.

and i think this is one case in point. "i began to have fantasies of becoming verypowerful and stopping everyone from having sex. i wanted to take their sex away fromthem, just like they took it away from me. i saw sex as an evil and barbaric act, allbecause i was unable to have it. this was the major turning point. my anger made mestronger inside. this was when i formed my ideas that sex should be outlawed. it is theonly way to make the world a fair and just place. if i can't have it, i will destroyit. that's the conclusion i came to, right then and there." so when he was unable to feel any sense ofconnection even through video games, the feelings

of destruction began to arise. "at the beginning of the winter break, i decidedto quit playing world of warcraft entirely. on my last day on the game, i had a long,emotional conversation with a friend where i opened up about all of my troubles. i toldhim about all my newfound views of the world and my belief that sex must be abolished." there's no comment on what happened with thisconversation. "i formed an ideology in my head of how theworld should work. i was fueled both by my desire to destroy all of the injustices ofthe world and to exact revenge on everyone i envy and hate. i decided that my destinyin life is to rise to power so i can impose

my ideology on the world and set everythingright." so because he feels small and insignificantand alienated and rejected and excluded, the compensatory fantasy is megalomania, is delusionsof grandeur. "as time progressed, i realized how hopelesseverything in my life was. the chances that i will ever rise to power and right the wrongsof the world were extremely slim. i had absolutely no idea or plan of how to acquire any sortof power. it was naã¯ve of me to think that i could one day become a dictator. the onlything i could do was fantasize about it. "all i had ever wanted was to love women,but their behavior has only earned my hatred. i want to have sex with them and make themfeel good, but they would be disgusted at

the prospect." to love women, all i ever wanted was to lovewomen -- i believe that there's a maternal element in there. "they have no sexual attraction towards me.it is such an injustice, and i vehemently questioned why things had to be this way.why do women behave like vicious, stupid, cruel animals who take delight in my sufferingand starvation? why do they have a perverted sexual attraction for the most brutish ofmen instead of gentlemen of intelligence?" well, this, of course, is the great contradictionof twisted male sexual desires, perhaps of females too. i don't know. but he only wantedwomen for their physical attractiveness and

then he complains that they don't appreciatehis intelligence and sophistication and gentlemanly behavior and refinement and world travel. so he basically just wanted them because theywere physically attractive and then got enraged at them for not finding him physically attractivebut instead talked of all about his refinement and sophistication and this and that and theother. well, he could have found the refined and sophisticated and well-traveled womanwho didn't have to be encased in the body of a blonde goddess 10. but again, at this point, i would argue thatthe infantile bonding needs have completely broken free of any form of restraint and thelanguage is only fueling them, and he is projecting

his early abandonments and rejections at thehands of his caregivers on women as a whole because at this point the break seemed tobe completely off his developing insanity. and whether this could have been stopped ornot at this point is hard to know. "i concluded," he said, "that women are flawed.there is something mentally wrong with the way their brains are wired, as if they haven'tevolved from animal-like thinking. they are incapable of reason or thinking rationally.they are like animals, completely controlled by their primal, depraved emotions and impulses.that is why they are attracted to barbaric, wild, beast-like men. they are beasts themselves.beasts should not be able to have any rights in a civilized society. if their wickednessis not contained, the whole of humanity will

be held back from advancement to a more civilizedstate. "women should not have the right to choosewho to mate with. that choice should be made for them by civilized men of intelligence.if women had the freedom to choose which men to mate with, like they do today, they wouldbreed with stupid, degenerate men, which would only produce stupid, degenerate offspring.this in turn would hinder the advancement of humanity." so this is kind of like nazi-based eugenics. "not only hinder it, but devolve humanitycompletely. women are like a plague that must be quarantined. when i came to this brilliant,perfect revelation, i felt like everything

was now clear to me in a bitter, twisted way.i am one of the few people on this world who has the intelligence to see this. i am likea god, and my purpose is to exact ultimate retribution on all of the impurities i seein the world." well, of course, the basic reality and youhear this from people who hate their marriage partner or whatever, it's like, well, thenleave, right? if women are so repulsive, then stop trying to date them. i mean, obviously,right? i mean if you find out some woman you're attracted to has some sort of hell-baked infernalcrotch rot, then you're going to say, "well, maybe i'll not date this person" because it'snot good, right? and so if they are as hideous, of course,then stop, right? but it's his own sexual

impulses that he's hating because as an infanthe was powerless to the whim of the women around him and as an adult male, he feelshis sexual desire makes him helpless to the whims of the cruel and beautiful women aroundhim. and again, this is where infantile rage combined with adult resourcefulness is anincredibly dangerous combination. "in fully realizing these truths about theworld, i have created the ultimate and perfect ideology of how a fair and pure world wouldwork. in an ideal world, sexuality would not exist. it must be outlawed. in a world withoutsex, humanity will be pure and civilized. men will grow up healthily, without havingto worry about such a barbaric act. all men will grow up fair and equal, because no manwill be able to experience the pleasures of

sex while others are denied it. the humanrace will evolve to an entirely new level of civilization, completely devoid of allthe impurity and degeneracy that exists today." now, leftism, egalitarianism, liberalism,socialism, communism -- all of the evening out ideologies may perhaps play a role, asmall role to be fair in this idea that violence is perfectly acceptable in redistributingthe goods of this world, whether the goods are money or opportunity or education or sexualityor sexual experiences. the idea that violence is an acceptable way of redistributing theresources in this world to make this fairer is something that is such a common trope,such a common standard in western civilization that it may have had a small part to playin his idea that he was owed something and

that violence should be used to redistributethe goods and services of the world by the sexual or financial from those who had moreto those who had less, to each according to their need, from each according to their ability. and again, these all are pieces of a jigsawpuzzle or straws on a camel's back. "in order to completely abolish sex," he writes,"women themselves would have to be abolished. all women must be quarantined like the plaguethey are so that they can be used in a manner that actually benefits a civilized society.in order carry this out, there must exist a new and powerful type of government, underthe control of one divine ruler, such as myself. the ruler that establishes this new orderwould have complete control over every aspect

of society, in order to direct it towardsa good and pure place. at the disposal of this government, there needs to be a highlytrained army of fanatically loyal troops in order to enforce such revolutionary laws." and of course, the helpless dream of powerand the more helpless you are, the more violent the power you dream of; and he's dreamingof universal dictatorship with him as the dictator. "the first strike against women will be toquarantine all of them in concentration camps. at these camps..." what's interesting is thathe railed against going to camps when he was in summer. now the women are going to campsagainst their will. he was sent to camp against

his will as well. "at these camps, the vast majority of thefemale population will be deliberately starved to death. that would be an efficient and fittingway to kill them all off. i would take great pleasure and satisfaction in condemning everysingle woman on earth to starve to death. i would have an enormous tower built justfor myself where i can oversee the entire concentration camp and gleefully watch themall die. if i can't have them, no one will, i'd imagine thinking to myself as i overseethis. women represent everything that is unfair with this world, and in order to make theworld a fair place, they must all be eradicated. a few women would be spared, however, forthe sake of reproduction. these women would

be kept and bred in secret labs. there, theywill be artificially inseminated with sperm samples in order to produce offspring. theirdepraved nature will slowly be bred out of them in time." and the degree to which he feels that womenhave had destructive power over him is the degree, of course, to which he wishes to havedestructive power over women. and this can't come from any other place. again, in my admittedlyamateur opinion, this can't come from any other place than an infant experience, aninfant who is completely dependent upon a cruel or indifferent woman. this degree ofhelplessness that he experienced, i would assume or i believe, that he experienced asan infant is then projected into basically

returning "the favor" to women as a wholeby putting them in concentration camps, i.e. the cribs and starving and neglecting them. "future generations of men would be obliviousto these remaining women's existence and that is for the best. if a man grows up withoutknowing of the existence of women, there will be no desire for sex. sexuality will completelycease to exist. love will cease to exist. there will no longer be any imprint of suchconcepts in the human psyche. it is the only way to purify the world. "in such a pure world, the man's mind candevelop to greater heights than ever before. future generations will live their lives freeof having to worry about the barbarity of

sex and women, which will enable them to expandtheir intelligence and advance the human race to a state of perfect civilization. "it is such a shameful pity that my idealworld cannot be created. i realized long ago that there is no way i could possibly riseto such a level of power in my lifetime, with the way the world is now. such a thing willnever become a reality for me, but it did give me something to fantasize about as iburned with hatred towards all women for rejecting me throughout the years. this whole viewpointand ideology of abolishing sex stems from being deprived of it all my life. if i cannothave it, i will do everything i can to destroy it.

"my orchestration of the day of retribution,"which turned out to be friday in santa barbara, "is my attempt to do everything, in my power,to destroy everything i cannot have." this is one he called the resentment which is ifyou can't have it, it must be destroyed; is the hope that in destroying the object ofdesire, you can destroy your own twisted desire, which he knows he can't do which is why heended up shooting himself. "all of those beautiful girls i've desiredso much in my life, but can never have because they despise and loathe me, i will destroy.all of those popular people who live hedonistic lives of pleasure, i will destroy, becausethey never accepted me as one of them. i will kill them all and make them suffer, just asthey have made me suffer. it is only fair."

so again, you see this entitlement, whichagain i assume as based in infancy. "why do things have to be this way? i'm surethat is the question everyone will be asking after the day of retribution is over. theywill all be asking why. indeed, why? that is the question i've had for everyone throughoutall my years of suffering. why was i condemned to live a life of misery and worthlessnesswhile other men were able to experience the pleasures of sex and love with women?" i assumehe means his father. "why do things have to be this way? i ask all of you." well, if he had a ghost, i would say, well,it's because you were a creepy narcissistic loner who freaked everyone out who came incontact with him. and that's probably one

of the reasons why since you gave up an intensepatrick bateman tuning fork vibe of inner hellscape that people probably were less enthusiasticabout spending time with you. "all i ever wanted was to love women, andin turn to be loved by them back. their behavior towards me has only earned my hatred, andrightfully so! i am the true victim in all of this." the self-pity of the eminent murderer. "i am the good guy. humanity struck at mefirst by condemning me to experience so much suffering. i didn't ask for this. i didn'twant this. i didn't start this war. i wasn't the one who struck first. but i will finishit by striking back. i will punish everyone. and it will be beautiful. finally, at longlast, i can show the world my true worth."

again, this is the dangers of language andit's so important to be conscious of how you're talking to this yourself and the world thatyou're building around yourself. "i started considering," he says, "the possibilityof having to carry out a violent act of revenge, as the final solution to dealing with allof the injustices i've had to face at the hands of women and society. i came up witha name for this after i saw all of the good-looking young couples walking around my college andin the town of isla vista. i named it the day of retribution. "it would be a day in which i exact my ultimateretribution and revenge on all of the hedonistic scum who enjoyed lives of pleasure that theydon't deserve. if i can't have it, i will

destroy it. i will destroy all women becausei can never have them. i will make them all suffer for rejecting me. i will arm myselfwith deadly weapons and wage a war against all women and the men they are attracted to.and i will slaughter them like the animals they are. if they won't accept me among them,then they are my enemies. they showed me no mercy, and in turn i will show them no mercy.the prospect will be so sweet, and justice will ultimately be served. and of course,i would have to die in the act to avoid going to prison. "without the prospect of becoming wealthyat a young age, i had nothing to live for now. i was going to be a virgin outcast forever.at this point, it fully dawned on me that

the possibility of having to resort to exactingthis retribution was more real than ever before. i realized that i had to start planning andpreparing for the day of retribution, even though i hadn't yet had any idea of what daythat would be. "my first act of preparation was the purchasemy first handgun. i did this quickly and hastily, at a local gun shop called goleta gun andsupply. i had already done some research on handguns, and i decided to purchase the glock34 semiautomatic pistol, an efficient and highly accurate weapon. my next step towardsplanning for it was to buy my second handgun, a sig sauer p226. "i also needed to buy a third handgun, justin case one of them jams. i needed two working

handguns at the same time as that was howi planned to commit suicide; with two simultaneous shots to the head. i also needed to buy magazineclips and ammunition, as well as knives and carrying cases for my equipment. "i had an argument with soumaya while i wasvisiting father's house. it started when she began to boast that my brother jazz was recentlysigned by an agent to act in t.v. commercials. i talked about how jazz was already so sociallysavvy for his age, and how i've always envied him for it. she told me that he will neverhave any problems with girls and will lose his virginity while he's young. oh, soumaya, soumaya, soumaya, that's prettyfucking cruel, if you don't mind me saying

so. that is extremely cruel for a child whois -- a young man who you know is tortured by his lack of social abilities and his failureswith women. to brag and parade your son in front of him is an act of exquisite quasi-maternalsadism and is an unholy thing to have done to your disturbed son. i'm sorry. i mean sorry even for the swearingbut it is just unbelievably cruel to do that. he was actually being vulnerable saying, "ienvy his social ease." and she's like, "oh, yeah, he's never going to have any problemswith girls. he's going to lose his virginity while he is young." now, again, this is ayoung boy talking about losing his virginity while he's young reactivates sexually disturbedwoman and the sadism and cruelty that she

is exhibiting towards her stepson is probablyone of the, i would argue again from an outsider's perspective with all the hindsight in theworld, is one of the things that is driving his hatred towards attractive women. i meanit's not women out there who cause men's hostility towards women. it's women within the family,i would argue almost always. this is an act of unbelievable sadism andcruelty towards a vulnerable and unstable young man. and again, this is his describingof it but if this has happened... he said, "i had to sit there and listen tothe bitch tell me that my little brother will grow up enjoying the life i've always cravedfor but missed out on. it is very unfair how some boys are able to live such pleasurablelives while i never had any taste of it, and

now it has been confirmed to me that my littlebrother will become one of them. he will become a popular kid who gets all the girls. girlswill love him. he will become one of my enemies." good job, stepmom. "that was the day that i decided i would haveto kill him on the day of retribution. i will not allow the boy to surpass me at everything,to live the life i've always wanted. it's not fair that he has the chance to have apleasurable life while i've been denied it. it will be a hard thing to do because i hadreally bonded with my little brother in the last year, and he respected and looked upto me. but i would have to do it. if i can't live a pleasurable life, then neither willhe! i will not let him put my legacy to shame."

so the murderous and sadistic impulse passesfrom the stepmother to elliot which will then be taken out on jazz. "in order to kill jazz, i would have to killsoumaya too, but that will be easy. all i would need to do is think about all of thehurtful things she had said to me in that past as i plunge my knife into her neck,"because the neck is where her voice is coming from, the neck is where her words are comingfrom. he has experienced her language as knives to him and this is the enactment in return. "but what if father is in the house to stopme? would i have to kill him too? that would be too much. i remember when i was a child,i had dreams about my father dying and i woke

up crying to my mother and she would comfortme and tell me that it was just a dream. how could my life have resorted to the point wherei am the one to kill my own father? i felt sick to my stomach. i concluded that i wouldhave to set the day of retribution during a time when my father is out of the country,on one of his business trips. it would be too risky to try and kill him. i might hesitateat the last second." so he has some bond with his father. so it was mentioned elliot uploaded a seriesof videos to youtube hinting at his ideology. this is what he writes in his manifesto: "afteronly a week since i uploaded those videos on youtube, i heard a knock on my apartmentdoor. i opened it to see about seven police

officers asking for me. as soon as i saw thosecops, the biggest fear i had ever felt in my life overcame me. i had the striking anddevastating fear that someone had somehow discovered what i was planning to do and reportedme for it. if that was the case, the police would have searched my room and found allof my guns and weapons along with my writings about what i plan to do with them. i wouldhave been thrown in jail, denied of the chance to exact revenge on my enemies. i can't imaginea hell darker than that. thankfully, that wasn't the case, but it was so close." what can be said? "apparently, someone saw my videos and becameinstantly suspicious of me. the police interrogated

me outside for a few minutes asking me ifi had suicidal thoughts. i tactfully told them that it was all a misunderstanding andthey finally left. if they had demanded to search my room, that would have ended everything.for a few horrible seconds i thought it was all over. when they left, the biggest waveof relief swept over me. it was so scary." why wouldn't the police look up if he'd boughta bunch of guns? i mean they can figure out the status of your driver's license when theypull you over or whether you're on parole. could they not ping the gun registry and findout if this unstable young man who is talking about killing people had actually purchaseda few guns? i mean seven cops showed up. wouldn't one of them have pinged this to find thisout? who can explain? who can understand?

he says, "on the day before the day of retribution,i will start the first phase of my vengeance: silently killing as many people as i can aroundisla vista by luring them into my apartment through some form of trickery. the first peoplei would have to kill are my two housemates to secure the entire apartment for myselfas my personal torture and killing chamber. after that, i will start luring people intomy apartment, knock them out with a hammer, and slit their throats. i will torture someof the good-looking people before i kill them, assuming that the good looking ones had thebest sex lives. "all of that pleasure they had in life, iwill punish by bringing them pain and suffering. i have lived a life of pain and suffering,and it was time to bring that pain to people

who actually deserve it. i will cut them,flay them, strip all the skin off their flesh, and pour boiling water all over them whilethey are still alive, as well as any other form of torture i could possibly think of.when they are dead, i will behead them and keep their heads in a bag, for their headswill play a major role in the final phase. the final phase will represent my vengeanceagainst all of the men who have had pleasurable sex lives while i've had to suffer. thingswill be fair once i make them suffer as i did. i will finally even the score." see, again, it's not just women that he hates.he's in equal opportunity hatist. "the second phase will take place on the dayof retribution itself, just before the climactic

massacre. the second phase will representmy war on women. i will punish all females for the crime of depriving me of sex. theyhave starved me of sex for my entire youth and gave that pleasure to other men. in doingso, they took many years of my life away. i cannot kill every single female on earth,but i can deliver a devastating blow that will shake all of them to the core of theirwicked hearts. "i will attack the very girls who representeverything i hate in the female gender: the hottest sorority of ucsb. after doing a lotof extensive research within the last year, i found out that the sorority with the mostbeautiful girls is alpha phi sorority. i know exactly where their house is, and i've satoutside it in my car to stalk them many times.

alpha phi sorority is full of hot, beautifulblonde girls; the kind of girls i've always desired but was never able to have becausethey all look down on me. they are all spoiled, heartless, wicked bitches. they think theyare superior to me, and if i ever tried to ask one on a date, they would reject me cruelly. "i will sneak into their house at around 9:00p.m. on the day of retribution, just before all of the partying starts, and slaughterevery single one of them with my guns and knives. if i have time, i will set their wholehouse on fire. then we shall see who the superior one really is! "the final phase of the day of retributionwill be my ultimate showdown in the streets

of isla vista. on the morning before, i willdrive down to my father's house to kill my little brother, denying him of the chanceto grow up to surpass me, along with my stepmother soumaya, as she will be in the way. my fatherwill be away on one of his business trips, so thankfully i won't have to deal with him.if he didn't go away on that trip, i might even have to postpone the whole plan becauseof my fear that i might hesitate if i have to kill him. once i've taken care of my brotherand stepmother, i will switch over to the mercedes suv, and drive it back up to islavista. i will use it as one of my killing machines against my enemies. an suv will causea lot more damage than my bmw coupe. "after i have killed all of the sorority girlsat the alpha phi house, i will quickly get

into the suv before the police arrive, assumingthey would arrive within 3 minutes. i will then make my way to del playa, splatteringas many of my enemies as i can with the suv and shooting anyone i don't splatter. i canonly imagine how sweet it will be to ram the suv into all of those groups of popular youngpeople who i've always witnessed walking right in the middle of the road as if they are betterthan everyone else. when they are writhing in pain, their bodies broken and dying afteri splatter them, they will fully realize their crimes. "once i reach del playa street, i will dumpthe bag of severed heads i had saved from my previous victims, proclaiming to everyonehow much i've made them all suffer. once they

see all of their friends' heads roll ontothe street, everyone will fear me as the powerful god i am. i will then start massacring everyoneon del playa street. i will pull up next to a house party and fire bullets at everyonepartying on the front yard. i will specifically target the good-looking people and all ofthe couples. after i have destroyed a house party, i will continue down del playa destroyingeverything and everyone. when i see the first police car come to their rescue, i will driveaway as fast as i can shooting and ramming anyone in my path until i find a suitableplace to finally end my life. "to end my life, i will quickly swallow allof the xanax and vicodin pills i have left," so i assume he's been taking some of thesemind-altering drugs, "along with an ample

amount of hard liquor. immediately after imbibingthis mixture, i will shoot myself in the head with two of my handguns simultaneously. ifthe gunshots don't kill me, the deadly drug mixture eventually will. i will not sufferbeing captured and sent to prison. "i must plan this very efficiently. nothingcan go wrong. it needs to be perfect. this is now my sole purpose on this world. my planswill come to fruition, and i mustn't let anyone stop me." someone on an online forum said to elliot,"i see you got rid of those serial killer-esque videos on youtube," and the police who hadseen the videos apparently come away from the interview thinking he's a perfectly niceand normal fellow. you really can't look to

protection from these people. if you are goingto have an enormously ambitious career, it may not be the best idea to have children. maybe there was something genetic with thisyoung man. i mean probably we'll never know for sure but you never know if you're goingto have maybe a needy and hypersensitive kid. maybe you'll have a really resilient kid whocan bounce back from anything or maybe you won't. but the degree of ambition that isshown by people means that they are just less available for their children. and if you havea child who's going off the rails and you can get mad at the child if you want, thatit's his fault although if it's genetics, it's not his fault at all, but you are goingto need to be present and you need to adjust

your parenting for the needs of your children.if you have a high needs child, then you need to adjust your parenting accordingly. i can't imagine what is going through thefather's head now. i mean it must just be unbearable. the idea, of course, that he wouldspend three years of his life on a failed documentary while neglecting his son who endedup in this situation must not look like the wisest choice at the moment. schools are toxic particularly for sensitivekids, particularly for smaller kids, shorter kids, kids who are later to develop in termsof puberty and they are toxic. it is a brutal environment. it is kind of like the hungergames. it's one of the reasons why those films

are so popular. the makers of the hunger games was originallyyou couldn't go -- as a kid they made changes to the scripts and then the films were releasedso that anyone, 12 and over, could go to those films and even under 12 if accompanied byan adult could go. these are not films that are suitable for young teens or children,even mid-teens. they are full of horrific scenes of unbelievable violence -- kids beingkilled with hammers, kids being pulled apart by ravenous dogs -- just unbelievable levelsof hysterical violence. this is not great for this. the love of violence that we have as a cultureis toxic to the unstable among us, and we

really do have to question the degree to whichwe are addicted to violence rather than -- i mean you can have intelligent thrillers. youcan have imaginative thrillers. you can get excitement from films without watching peoplegetting shredded up by buzz saws or bludgeoned to death with hammers. it is to our desirefor stimulation as porn as to our sexual desires. it is over the top and i think ultimatelycan be destructive. peer relationships are very powerful in aschool situation as dr. philip zimbardo has pointed out. when we evolved as a species,there were four adults for every one child in society: extended families, aunts, uncles,grandparents and so on. and this is rarely the case anymore. now kids are shipped offto school for seven or more hours a day and

the parents are busy, come home late, busyfixing dinner and helping them with homework and there's not a chance for relax and intimateconversations; the kind of relaxed intimacy that has you really know your child, reallyget to know your child. in the absence of strong bonds with parents,our natural desire for bonding goes horizontal. and if that is thwarted, as i pointed out,isolation and rage can occur. you must, must, must keep talking to your kids. if i had ason who came home from a party with a broken leg and facial lacerations and bruises, iwould not stop until i had found out what happened. i would drive over to the party.i would try and find out. i would figure things out. we'd call the cops. if my son had initiatedviolence, then we would deal with that. but

there's no comment on what happens in particularafter all of these. but these are signs of a child going seriously off the rails as aretalks of suicide. materialism -- materialism, materialism, materialism.it is the quality of our minds and hearts that truly matters in the long run, not theamount of toys we die surrounded by. this young man was desperate for cues from hissociety about how to act because he did not have a bond with his father, at least nota strong bond with his father. he complained that he felt abandoned by his father. his need for a template for how to act, weinherit our actions from the culture and adults around us which is why kids who grow up inmorocco are kind of moroccan and kids who

grew up in new york are kind of new york andkids who grew up in tunisia are kind of tunisian and muslim kids are from muslim parents. weare imprinted by those around us. and if you are not imprinting your children, then youare letting peers and culture do it for you, particularly if you come from a non-religiousculture. it seems that the father was very critical and hostile towards organized religion. so if you are not imprinting behavior andnorms and expectations on your child, then you are really going to rely on the cultureand on the child's peers to do that. and that is going to lead your kids astray. childrencannot parent other children and the culture has no interest in parenting your children,only profiting from them by stimulating their

most based desires and instincts. they pluginto the reptile brain because that gets them to cough up the most money. children when they're young, when they'reteenagers, the human brain does not fully mature until one is mid-20s. and when you'reyounger, you don't think about consequences. you think about immediate stimulation. sexand violence and materialism are easy ways to stimulate yourself and they tend to blurout the more refined and deep pleasures of art and philosophy and sophisticated conversationand the pursuit of moral excellence and moral courage and so on. it's like jamming yourface full of sugar every day and then wondering why broccoli doesn't taste good anymore.

this hyperstimulation of the nervous systemthat the immature lizard brain gets plugged into by culture and hollywood in particulartends to displace the more sophisticated and refined pleasures that are i think the basisof a long term and sustainable happiness in life, which is why this kid was like, "i have$300 sunglasses. why won't women sleep with me?" was there hypergamy going on like thistrading up or trading sexuality for money and status on the part of his mother and stepmother.it appears that there were. again, i don't know enough about the detailsbut it seems quite a bit that these very attractive women were using their attractiveness to gettheir hook, so to speak, into successful and wealthy men. so it's hard to know. but fromsomewhere, he got the idea that if you have

material possessions you can have sex. oncehe had this idea, which comes from maybe his family, certainly from hollywood and to somedegree from women as well in that they're looking for tall, rich and handsome, right?and he gets his idea from somewhere. once he has this idea, perhaps because hehas problems with his thinking and problems with social skills as a result of asperger's,but once he has this idea, he's not able to adapt to its failure. so he has this ideathat when you have money you get beautiful women. the fact that that wasn't working forhim only caused him to double down. he didn't have the capacity to adapt to changing circumstancesor have the biofeedback or emotional feedback, mechanism that says, "what i'm doing is notworking so i should change what i'm doing."

i would argue that that comes because majorlife changes were simply imposed upon him without any consultation, so he does not havethe capacity to adapt because adaptations were never eased on to him but rather inflictedupon him like a ball pin hammered to the forehead. "here's your new stepmother. you got to goto morocco. there's another kid on the way. you got to go to camp. you got to go to thisschool. you'll be back late." he's just bouncing around like a pinball butno sense of will and that frustration at the lack of willpower, his lack of capacity tomanage his surroundings, to control his stimuli results in this feeling of intense humiliationand his feeling of helplessness at being able to achieve any kind of sexual life, any kindof romantic life which then explodes into

visceral hatred because he doesn't have away of getting what he wants. and he sees everyone else getting what he wants and hisbrain translates that into "they're taking it from me and must be punished." this kind of thinking, it is a kind of thinkingthat constructs this cathedral of evil. it is a series of conceptual steps which i believecan be intervened, can be broken down, can be, you know, he wanted this love, this sexuallife so desperately. i believe that it was a way of reenacting humiliation that remainedunprocessed. but there were ways to convince him about how he could get it but he wouldhave to start with some level of self-criticism. but i imagine that he hated himself so muchthat self-criticism was like asking him to

put his penis in a blender and it would nothave worked. so yeah, you consult your kids about majorlife changes. you do not impose them. that is going to be disastrous. the racial aspect is, as i mentioned, tragicallyunderreported. i hate to shock you but whites can be victim of racism, absolutely. and thisguy was a pretty horrendous racist and it was at least much a racial crime as it wasa gender-based crime. envy is a tricky emotion because envy canspur you to excellence. you could be envious of somebody's wealth and therefore figureout how they got it and work hard to achieve it. you could be envious of somebody's artistictalent and figure out how to achieve it. so

envy can be a spur to the great horse of ambition.but if it turns into a warhorse to trample your enemies with, then envy becomes toxic. i think that there is an aristotelian meanthat needs to be dealt with in terms of envy. having no envy is to kind of be listless andnot have any particular goals particularly when you're young. but having an excessiveenvy turns toxic and murderous and certainly materialism provokes a lot of envy in people. if only i had this or that or the other materialpossession or money or wealth or fame or status or power, then everything would be fine. ithink we can see certainly from this example and many other examples the world over thatthe road to happiness is not paved with rolex

watches and designer sunglasses and bmws andexpensive haircuts and so on; that these things degrade the quality of your human offeringbecause the prettier the egg, the more rotten the inside, so often, which is not to saydon't present yourself in any positive way, don't care at all about your appearance butthat's another aristotelian mean: becoming obsessively focused on your appearance isbecause you wish to distract people from some significant internal dysfunction as is thecase when you care nothing about your appearance either. so i hope that this has been helpful. again,i wish i could pull some facts. the facts are there to find out exactly what happenedbut they will almost never be revealed for

a variety of reasons; some psychological,some legal and so on. so the facts are there but we won't get them. all we get is hintsand possible ways to reconstruct this hellish jigsaw puzzle. but i hope that this has beenof some help to you. i really, really appreciate your patience as we've gone down this particularlydark goblin-infested passageway of the human mind. this is stefan molyneux for freedomain radio.thank you again so much. take care of your kids, people.